The Curves of your Smile..

On this Autumn Equinox who would have thought I’d be sending you flowers? Who would have thought that my first flowers to you would be a white wreath?

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I’ve tried to keep the thought of you away from my mind. It’s been a few days and I live on normally, but it hits me hard when I think of you and the realization that the truth is you are no longer here. This thought runs through my mind at least 50 times each day. I wake up every morning thinking of the possibility I’ve been living a dream. I stay away from social media just so I can avoid seeing reality or worse: receiving news of your service. Just how do we cope?

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We’ve never met, but your voice, your smile, your energy, your positivity is so deep in me. How do I adjust to this hole in my heart? It’s been difficult to live, to breathe, to think and to be myself. The thought of your nonexistence is unbelievable and unbearable.
You’ve once said that you want to use your own way to let the world remember you. You’ve once said that if you were one day gone, you’d hope that fans wouldn’t be sad nor cry for you. Kimi gege, though we could not stop our swollen eyes from more tears, you’ve imprinted yourself in our hearts. You have left a happy part of you in all of us.

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Today as hundreds and thousands of people who love you line up in black attire to come and pay their final respects, I am reminded that I, too, must respect you by accepting the heart-wrenching truth.

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Today, I am letting you go.

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Your sufferings and pain, the sleepless nights, and the things you couldn’t tell anyone–let it all dissolve into thin air. In your new world, you must live light and you must live freely. Carry no sorrows and pack all of the love in this lifetime with you. There, you must only be happy.

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Thank you for your positive energy. Thank you for always looking after everyone. Thank you for your honest work. Thank you for sharing your uplifting smile. Thank you for sharing your beautiful voice. Thank you Kimi gege, for trying this long. You must be tired.
Rest In Peace my Sunshine, my Angel, my beloved Kimi Qiao RenLiang..

My Heart, Your Throne.

 

 

Satisfied

By Jordan Feliz

I have stumbled through the darkest of the valleys
And I have climbed upon the highest of the hills
All my traveling has brought me to Your fountain
And all I want is to come and drink my fill
And all I want is to come and drink my fill

My heart, Your throne
This life belongs to You and You alone
Let there be no divide
In only You, may my soul be satisfied

There is beauty that can lead into temptation
And there are voices that would call me far away
But I have found in Your surrender my salvation
And in Your love I’ve come to find a resting place
Yes in Your love I’ve come to find a resting place

My heart, Your throne
This life belongs to You and You alone
Let there be no divide
In only You, may my soul be satisfied

The broken, the thirsty, who long for Your mercy
Can run to You, only You
And peace everlasting, beyond understanding
In You, only You

My heart, Your throne
This life belongs to You and You alone
Let there be no divide
In only You, may my soul be satisfied
In only You, may my soul be satisfied